I can’t say that I hate when people treat me like I am an idiot because we don’t agree on things. It rarelt affects me. I can say, however, that I hate when people who are my close friends shut me down. I hate being disrespected by my close friends. I hate what some of my friends are turning into -- the people that were supposed to be there for me, the people I thought I knew.

Maybe they don’t see what they are doing to me or how it is affecting me. But the loving and caring people that I once knew are gone. Not all of them. Some of my friends, recently, have been the best I could ask for.

But some haven’t. Some have turned into spoiled, selfish bitches. They think of nothing but themselves, and brag relentlessly. They change who they are around certain people, and are losing their genuine touch. Once holding a high level of respect for them, I don’t know where to place them now. I don’t know what to make of the façade. Maybe they are going through something that I’ll never understand.

Or maybe they’re just spoiled, selfish bitches.

Wow, am I venting. This has been on my mind for a while now. It’s unlike me to speak out about this subject, but it’s like I want her to know what she is becoming and I can’t tell her directly. She probably doesn’t even know this is about her. And probably never will.

It’s one of those things I can’t just come out with because I am a pussy. Weak little girl, afraid of losing what she has. But maybe she doesn’t have anything at all and it is time to move on.

Alicia, this one is about you and the many times you've lowered my self-worth in the past couple of weeks.